Numb

These trying times have made me stronger physically, mentally but very numb emotionally. I have this automatic switch that makes me feel ready for a big problem to come and I have learned to become more patient in dealing with tight situations.

It is tiring to get mad, and it is a waste of time and energy. Better to focus instead of what lies ahead and the tought that really keeps me going is that this will be over soon.

Best to stay away from people with negative vibes most especially the ones that are related to you. If they won't do you any good, reserve that time instead with your family and swap funny stories over dinner.

I like seeing my kids smile when we trade stories. It makes my day complete and I learn a lot from them. Last night I got carried away when they asked me who Don Corleone was. Well they listened and enjoyed my short tale.

Being numb is good. Amidst the crisis that I and my family face, it doesn't seem like there is a crisis at all.

It is mid-April and I long to have that long awaited vacation at the beach with my wife and kids.