I just realized that I have not posted anything for a whole month. I normally write about good, happy, memorable events.
This time I write with a heavy heart. I had just been betrayed by my own brother at the start of the year. Wounds have not healed yet and now I just found out that a biking buddy did the same last week.
Fortunately, I have friends who told me about it. Now I am burdened with the task of dealing with this issue. It has taken a toll on my health, work, relationships, and one of the loves of my life...mountain biking.
If you back read, I need not explain further. Last Saturday was the first time in my biking history that I will have to painfully admit, I lost my appetite. The zeal was no longer there, the excitement was gone.
At the end of the day, it all boils down to money...money the true god of everyone. Money, the one thing everyone desires.
I have decided to sell my bikes this week : a giant reign and an old school specialized M2. a friend just called to try to convince me not to go ahead with this. although it pains me, I cannot bear to have to put up with people I cannot trust, especially in the trails.
Sometimes it is difficult to understand life. You work and strive to become a better provider to your family and later on, you discover that people try to steal your livelyhood from you. Confronted they say they did not intend to do so. They merely wanted to show me how to earn more.
Good intentions? I think not. This is what you call dog eat dog. But the irony of it all is that dogs are not even like that. Part of my family are 2 dogs : a Pitbull named Bruno and the Shi tzu named Missy. They are a bundle of joy, hard to manage but definitely do not eat each other as the saying goes.
I think the saying should be : man eat man. Sad to say, this is true even among family members, friends, relatives, co-workers.
So never let your guard down or you get punched in the face.
So will this be the end of great rides? I really don't know.
The answer lies in how I will feel towards the people around me within this week.
Sad....
